Monday, 24 March 2014

When life gets in the way of life.

There are things in life I want to do. I want to write, I want to study, I want to enjoy work but most of all, I just want to be happy.That's the ultimate aim of most of us isn't it, happiness? The thing is, it's often a more difficult eventuality to reach than we first assume, or at least for me.

There are things that give instant gratification of course (minds out of the gutter please folks, that's not what I'm talking about right now!), shopping, coffee, good books and all that stuff, but I can't help but feel I'm missing something. So many people around me seem to have their lives firmly glued together, striding forwards with Cheshire cat smiles and clear goals and productive days. Meanwhile I paddle around, flailing desperately to hold all the separate parts of my life together in any jumbled order I can manage. Clearly, everybody has their problems, and I'm massively generalising here, it's just, during my 'woe-is-me' moments, this is how it feels.
I think one of the major problems I encounter when it comes to trying to sort out my life is attempting to take on everything all at once. When you try and commit to Uni, a blog, work, managing your money, losing weight, starting a hobby, being more sociable, volunteering and whatever else there is, it becomes overwhelming. It becomes impossible and so instead, you give up on everything, you stand back, and you say sorry, this is all just too hard. You sign up to Netflix, you retire to an existence that consists of pasta, popcorn and pajamas and for months, you give up.
I turned 21 just over a week ago. An actual grown up and I think it's high time I start trying to take control. However, being kinda sick of the mess-everything at once-pajama cycle, I'm gonna go ahead and try something new.I'm gonna go with three things. Three things that for the next month, I'm going to try and get a handle of. I know what you're thinking, this is pretty revolutionary stuff right? Well hold onto your hats folks, things are about to get crazy! Not only am I gonna try and focus on just three things, but I'm going write them down, on the internet, for anybody who stumbles upon this place to see and hold me accountable. So, here goes...
1, I will commit more to Uni. I love my course, and I love where it could take me, but I have the same habit with that as I do everything else, when it starts the get scary or too full on, I run.
2, Reading and writing. I love both in equal measure, they make me happy, they are relaxing and all too often they are activities that get pushed to the bottom of the pile in favour of the ease of turning on the TV.
3, Try and be a bit healthier. I'm not talking any major diet/exercise regime. I'm talking drink more water, eat a bit less crap and a bit more good stuff, that kind of thing. I want to just incorporate that into my life and make it habit.

There we go. Three little things, things that let's be honest, are just part of life for many. I'll update you in a month on how things are going and in the meantime get some more posts in the pipeline!

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